having the internet again.

i live a pretty archaic life now, almost like a gypsy, with technology.
i have no cable, i technically do not have power until tomorrow, this is all by choice.
theres nothing good on t.v anymore.
sometimes i think that about life.
i came up with a line today that goes.
time is like money, and i aint got none to waste.
i thought it was pretty cool.
i feel like i've been living in a fantasy world. actually thinking i have fans and that someone is eagerly waiting for my next move.
maybe a couple people are.
i don't know, i probably wouldn't like that if it was happening.
start struck is what they call it. my beer is extra cold, and I've never read no bukowski besides ham on rye. In my new house, i leave my bedroom door open all the time.
its very strange because i never do that but i think it means i trust who i'm living with for once.
i hope i'm approaching the end of this dark tunnel soon. i think i just need a reason to hold out for outside of my own needs.
for awhile i felt like a super hero, a vigilante trying to save something, now i feel like all i was tryign to save was nothing, i think everyones content with the way things and i'm just living in the past.